'THE' question...

There is one question we get from just about everyone who knows we are adopting.  This question is phrased in many different ways, but it all comes down to the same exact thing.  "When do you get to bring the boys home?"  It is something I am struggling with.  We were hopeing when we went to court in the beginning of July that we would be going back mid September to bring them home.  By the beginning of September, I started to answer the question with, 'hopefully by the end of the month'.  Then, as September was about halfway through, the answer shifted to 'hopefully by early October.  We even waited to sign up for a marriage conference at our church this coming weekend - just in case - we were able to travel early October.  Then, now, it is October.  We are still here in Kansas, the boys are still in Ethiopia, and the wait just keeps getting longer and harder.  I am at the point of going ahead and packing a bag for Mason.  I know roughly how long we will be gone, and then, at least I will be doing something to be prepared for the trip.  I am ready to pack the stuff for the boys, I know what they are going to need and about how much.  I am at the point of, 'I need to do something, anything!'  Anything to feel like I am doing something towards bringing the boys home.  Nothing is in my hands, absolutely nothing!  I am praying, trusting, praying some more, being anxious, praying, and trying to continue trusting!  This adoption process is long and hard and not for the faint of heart.  I continue to pray for our boys, for the others we traveled with, for our case with the embassy!  Pray we travel in the next couple weeks!  Pray, pray, pray!!!  While praying, I prepare!  This is all I can do, pray and prepare.  It is something I am working on.  God is working on me.  It is painful... but working.  I am starting each day to trust him more and more, may faith is being stretched and and it is growing, for which, I am thankful.  I will thank the Lord!!